What Brian says to all of you

I'm posting it here just in case you don't get the email =/


I'm sending this to everyone in case you all don't see the topic on our4tnz. Someone please forward this to percy and hayley too.

I told you all Thursday that I was having a hard time and on the verge of killing myself and that I needed all of you to be here for me. I needed you to stay on here and talk to me. Yet you wouldn't do that for me. Ezzie, Abbie, now Elizabeth, Alena, and Sam too? You all can't stay on our4tnz and talk on here, even though you know it would save my life?

ALL of you mean everything to me. The year and a half we've known each other I have felt more happy, more accepted, than I ever have in my entire life. I've felt loved. You've all done so much for me you don't even realize. I'm literally crying right now.

Today was my birthday and I had to deal with more people saying they're leaving, deleting their accounts, calling me a pedophile. Do you know how much you are all hurting me right now? The only people I have in my life that I care about are turning their backs on me. I can't deal with that. I can't live with that. Don't say that it will get better because it won't. It never will. I'll never heal from this.

When I came to 4tnz I was upset and dealing with a lot of things that had happened to me recently. Being forced out of school, having an awful rumor started about me, two girls having broken my heart, my own uncle fighting me and dislocating my shoulder. And that's not even all of it. I didn't come to 4tnz to make friends though. I had come to troll. But I found myself making friends. I found myself being liked by people and feeling loved by a group of friends. You all helped me heal from everything I was going through. You helped me heal and feel better.

Now I feel like I'm losing everyone I care about. I'm losing the very people that helped me heal from everything. I cannot take that pain. I won't heal from it. Not anymore. You were all my last chance for a happy life.

It will never get better. The pain will never go away. I won't live with this pain anymore. I will kill myself. That's not a threat or an attempt to get you all to come back. It's a promise. Death is my only way out now. It's the only way to feel any better.

Lol.

PikachuIChooseYou wrote:

Lol.

IKR

I saw it and sent him an article on depression from my fave mag.
You know he's not depressed right? He's got the blues.

YoutubeNerd wrote:

I saw it and sent him an article on depression from my fave mag.
You know he's not depressed right? He's got the blues.

The blues? WHAT ARE THE BLUESSSS

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

I saw it and sent him an article on depression from my fave mag.
You know he's not depressed right? He's got the blues.

The blues? WHAT ARE THE BLUESSSS

The blues are like being sad.

Depressed is an illness diagnosed by a skilled medical practitioner . It happens nearly irrespective of life events.
Whereas the blues are experienced by a life changing event. You feel low and may be close to tears but that is not depression. That's the normal reaction to a bad event and its within range of human emotions. It's as if we've gotten out of the habit of acknowledging that sadness is part of the human experience. There is a real "get on with it" attitude. Feeling down just isn't tolerated. Saying your depressed makes your situation more palatable.

SEE? He's got the blues.

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

I saw it and sent him an article on depression from my fave mag.
You know he's not depressed right? He's got the blues.

The blues? WHAT ARE THE BLUESSSS

The blues are like being sad.

Depressed is an illness diagnosed by a skilled medical practitioner . It happens nearly irrespective of life events.
Whereas the blues are experienced by a life changing event. You feel low and may be close to tears but that is not depression. That's the normal reaction to a bad event and its within range of human emotions. It's as if we've gotten out of the habit of acknowledging that sadness is part of the human experience. There is a real "get on with it" attitude. Feeling down just isn't tolerated. Saying your depressed makes your situation more palatable.

SEE? He's got the blues.

Oh ok

someone give him some måns zelmerlöw cds and a bottle of wine!

meagh wrote:

someone give him some måns zelmerlöw cds and a bottle of wine!

Heh???

So hes dead?

MrsSamMellark wrote:

meagh wrote:

someone give him some måns zelmerlöw cds and a bottle of wine!

Heh???

måns zelmerlöw is a swedish singer who writes some pretty depressing music, and everyone gets drunk when they're depressed in the movies.

meagh wrote:

someone give him some måns zelmerlöw cds and a bottle of wine!

And maybe a snuggie, the notebook and a tub of ben and jerry's

YoutubeNerd wrote:

meagh wrote:

someone give him some måns zelmerlöw cds and a bottle of wine!

And maybe a snuggie, the notebook and a tub of ben and jerry's

and fat jeans,

PikachuIChooseYou wrote:

So hes dead?

No. I don't think so... maybe?... Nah doubt it... but what if...? .... Okay I'm scared now

OMG YES FAT JEANS

meagh wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

meagh wrote:

someone give him some måns zelmerlöw cds and a bottle of wine!

And maybe a snuggie, the notebook and a tub of ben and jerry's

and fat jeans,

And tissues

YoutubeNerd wrote:

PikachuIChooseYou wrote:

So hes dead?

No. I don't think so... maybe?... Nah doubt it... but what if...? .... Okay I'm scared now

i feel bad now.

I JUST WANT HIM DEAD.
Jk.

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

NO ITS JUST JEANS FOR FAT PEOPLE

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

NO ITS JUST JEANS FOR FAT PEOPLE

OH I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE
I'm always the one who gets the joke 10 minutes later

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

NO ITS JUST JEANS FOR FAT PEOPLE

OH I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE
I'm always the one who gets the joke 10 minutes later

ikr

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

NO ITS JUST JEANS FOR FAT PEOPLE

OMG YOU DID NOT . XD IM CRYING

StarQualityGleek wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

NO ITS JUST JEANS FOR FAT PEOPLE

OMG YOU DID NOT . XD IM CRYING

I MADE YOUR DAY

MrsSamMellark wrote:

StarQualityGleek wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

YoutubeNerd wrote:

MrsSamMellark wrote:

OMG YES FAT JEANS

What are fat jeans? Sweatpants?

NO ITS JUST JEANS FOR FAT PEOPLE

OMG YOU DID NOT . XD IM CRYING

I MADE YOUR DAY

YES U DID